Monday, December 28, 2009

good-bye oh nine



good ol' bobby d.



like the great one said, as the years pass by... the times they are a-changin'.





see you on the other side '09. I'm ready for twenty-10.








THE TIMES THEY ARE A-CHANGIN'





Come gather 'round people

Wherever you roam

And admit that the waters

Around you have grown

And accept it that soon

You'll be drenched to the bone.

If your time to you

Is worth savin'

Then you better start swimmin'

Or you'll sink like a stone

For the times they are a-changin'.





Come writers and critics

Who prophesize with your pen

And keep your eyes wide

The chance won't come again

And don't speak too soon

For the wheel's still in spin

And there's no tellin' who

That it's namin'.

For the loser now

Will be later to win

For the times they are a-changin'.





Come senators, congressmen

Please heed the call

Don't stand in the doorway

Don't block up the hall

For he that gets hurt

Will be he who has stalled

There's a battle outside

And it is ragin'.

It'll soon shake your windows

And rattle your walls

For the times they are a-changin'.





Come mothers and fathers

Throughout the land

And don't criticize

What you can't understand

Your sons and your daughters

Are beyond your command

Your old road is

Rapidly agin'.

Please get out of the new one

If you can't lend your hand

For the times they are a-changin'.





The line it is drawn

The curse it is cast

The slow one now

Will later be fast

As the present now

Will later be past

The order is

Rapidly fadin'.

And the first one now

Will later be last

For the times they are a-changin'.






-bob dylan




Sunday, December 27, 2009

telegraph diaries

since the semester finally came to a close, I decided to skip out on going back to los angeles for a few days and kick back in berkeley. so on my first morning being free, still accustomed to all the sleepless nights during the last week, I was full of that rare morning energy and I decided to dust off the old camera and prowl the streets.



on this morning telegraph was still showing signs of life, as the street-sleepers began waking-up while the sunlight slowly broke across town. I let my visual senses take over and drowned out all other audible sound with some david bowie tracks (can't get enough that rebel, rebel) and I descended onto Sproul Plaza, which was pretty much dead with the the exception of some zombie lookin' students scattered about. while I was surveying the landscape, I noticed the student fountain was full of bubbles. something different today, eh? guess I picked the right time to come. I started snapping pictures, different angles and what not, half experimenting and half attempting to shake off this photographer rust. berkeley has a different feel to it once you don't have the burden of classes weighing on your shoulders.



while I pointed my viewfinder towards this bubble bath in the middle of Sproul, a man jumped in front of my view and started posing. I kept taking pictures for a few moments with him vogueing-out, until he walked up to me and began talking. his excitement made me laugh as he began throwing his fists in the air and shadow boxing an unseen opponent while he cryptically spoke in muddled words; his punches moved swiftly like blades through the air.




under his breath, with each jab I heard "Ali... Tyson... Will Smith." in those brief moments, it seemed he didn't remember I was there; he was totally immersed in his story, reenacting in front of me the very images going through his mind. I couldn't help but feel his energy while he stood there in front of me, it even led me to imagine him knockin-out Ali or Tyson as he so passionately believed he had done.




I nodded approvingly at his mumbled story, yet intrigued by him, I asked for one more picture. without my direction, he triumphantly curled both his arms into the sky, flexing his hidden muscles. He shot back at me with a proud smile and eyes that glistened brighter than the already radiant morning sky we both stood in. I took the photo and he proceeded to walk away while I waved to him. a champion in disguise that walked the streets of berkeley, who would of guessed?



As the boxer trailed away, he looked back.




"Ali... Tyson... Will Smith..."








I spent the next hour walking around campus, taking pictures of architecture and nature, getting my dora-the-explorer on through the scenery I hadn't had the chance to investigate during the busy semester. yet, for that hour and the rest of the day, the mysterious boxer stayed on my mind. each time he crossed my mind, I was reminded of the many surprises that life may have in store.



here at berkeley, you can run into many different types of people. some passive, maybe cheerful, needy, or angry. on telegraph, I've mostly run into the latter. that morning excursion brought me a sense of amazement and delight; a reason why I decided I would go again the next morning.




another sleepless night followed. I gave up on sleeping around 5:30 am, cooked breakfast (alright, maybe not that one...), and grabbed my camera again for round two. I left significantly earlier this time, in part of my insomnia, and an urgency to get some dope morning shots. as I walked down telegraph through the freezing air, I stood on the corner of telegraph and durant and looked northward down the street, hoping my eye would come across something. but this "something" walked up to me, asking for seventy-five cents for an early morning beer.




I gave him the only dollar I had on me.



"you taking photos?" he said.




"yeh, trying to see what I can come up with"




"that's cool man, I'm an artist too"




a little humbled he referred to me as an artist, I asked what he did, 




"paint and poetry, that's what I do. you got to have something you like doing, can't be inside all the time like a lot of people nowadays." the guy had more to him than met the eye, "that's good you're doing photography. people never stop to see the small things that have beauty around this place. everyone is always so busy, doing what you do can help expose them to all of it"




I told him I agreed, perhaps more for the overall medium of photography than my own work, but the poet was right. 




"it's a beautiful morning, do you want to hear a morning poem?" he asked me. 




I instantly said yeah, eager to see if this guy would spoil or surpass my expectations. a little prejudice? maybe... but a morning poem just like that? yeah right, this dude?




he then recited one of the most beautiful poems I've heard from anyone, let alone simply off the top of one's head. if only I could echo this back poem to you, the imagery he expressed was straight impressive. I asked if I could take a picture of him and he obliged. thus, I had my best, and most meaningful, shot of the day. 




so I parted from my new friend, who told me his name was Sunny, and was left to think about his poem, his message and who he was. as open to the world as I thought my eyes were before that moment, a perspective I never imagined before here on telegraph was now at my feet. the street now seemed illuminated. from the past two mornings, it just seemed there were more to the people who I usually just walk by everyday on my way to class.



I told my friend Paul about my experience with Sunny later on, and he said exactly what I had been feeling:




"Berkeley has a heartbeat that is unlike any place I have ever been, it's in this gorgeous contrast" 




between the grime, dirt, and sadness that can inject itself into the streets of the city through its homelessness and crime, there are still reasons to be proud. no, these are not reasons you will discover by quietly taking a casual glance at the scenery. you have to walk the streets, know them, and they will illustrate themselves to you. the poet was right.




here on telegraph and the area connecting it, they are more than simple streets. they are another world.




Wednesday, December 23, 2009

hello hi-atus





is down for the moment...



trying to mix n' match.






but don't get your panties in a knot, it'll be back in no time.





Tuesday, December 15, 2009

finals rip at your heart, don't they?





SO... during my first Final here at Berkeley, I was asked to write (for that extra credit, of course) a poem in a fashion similar to that of Sylvia Plath, describing the experience of taking the Final and completing it. For those of you who don't know, Plath didn't have the best relationship with her father. Actually, one of my favorite poems from her is "Daddy", check it if you haven't already...

In having this similarity with her, I ended up sitting there on the other side of school in the new building we were placed in specifically for finals, and thought about my less-than-spectacular father (sorry pops) at eight AM, and this is what came out: 





The years were long-

they held, they suffocated. Never honest.

Never far.

Towards this moment, they crept slowly

I left them the piece of me that was your name,

erasing its existence from my life

a protest of you when anyone desires to know who I am.



Who am I?

I am here, 

this Final comes first. It is my first Final.

I'm not there.

I answered the exam the only way I knew how, through the eyes of experience

and late, late, vacant nights

Answers far from the ones you fed me.



Was I frightened? If it were ten years ago, yes.

I was. 

I was asked to write a poem for an exam.

These words are the test.

This poem, this day.

I am through.

Still, you have an influence on me.

I continue to be tested, far from my days of hopelessness with you 

in my first exam at Berkeley, miles away-

I was asked to write a poem,

and you found a way to submerge yourself between its words.



Yet, you are threaded into a picture all my own- 

adding another year, another achievement along the lists

of where you failed and I succeeded.

This is the doctrine of myself.



Though the portrait of you remains-

Dad, in all that I am, your name is no where

to be found.





Saturday, December 12, 2009

a public melody

here's an uplifting video to assist in spreadin' some holiday cheer (not quite an xmas song but ey, is there ever really a right time for phil collins?)



so lose yourselves in the lights, evergreen trees, hot chocolate, snow, and candycanes; find your inner kid again, it's christmas time.



whatever you do, just don't turn out to be this awkward scrooge:










watch the vid... you'll know what I mean. have a good one people, lets enjoy the season together.